Restless nights

If i go a few years back in my life , It is difficult for me to accept now that i survived all those situations which once i thought would shatter me. Those restless nights, when my body and soul laid numb. Thought of such nights was once a nightmare for me. But when it actually happened it was worse than a nightmare. It even became difficult for me to come out of my room and face the world. I just used to sit in my room the whole day wondering where it all went wrong. How could even i forget that time when the only expression i had was of crying. The day used to  start with crying nd end up with crying only. Everything around me once was now killing me. The things which used to fill my heart with happiness was now filling my heart with sadness. That pain was so heavy to carry in my heart. I became a person with alive body with a dead soul.
    People says that " every story has a cost , choose your story wisely" , but with that time i realised that "Sometimes we do not write our story, it writes us. We don't choose our story, it chooses us." Sometimes some stories just comes in our life to teach us our endless limits. Some situations makes us realise our capabilities. Its always in our hand to make it worth reading or worth writing.
     Everytime i closes my eyes , all those moments gives such a painful flashback with a million of emotions. Today also those moments have the capacity to break me in tears. But now i am proud of myself because i am not anymore a sufferer bt a survivor of it. As they say everything happens for a reason.
Bad times gives us a opportunity to learn thousands of things because that time you don't have anything to lose. Whatever you do helps in earning something, either best people for life or best lessons for life. Time changes, but it doesn't heals anything. It merely softenes the pain and blures the memories. Those restless nights taught a million things but that one thing that hit me deep in my heart was that "accept you had lost but never accept that you are failed". If you need to grow from situations you need to accept it. There was a great storm in my heart but that one belief that the rain will stop one day and the clouds will get clear, made the whole difference.